What is this feeling and what do I do about it??

Hard at work πŸ‘‡πŸΌπŸ˜Έ

Eating what consists of my breakfast and downing my morning green tea (in a coffee cup) πŸ‘ŒπŸΌ 

So far this, lovely Friday morning (πŸ˜’) I’ve already put in 3hrs of writing work, 30 minute yoga routine, 5minutes of meditation and 45mins at the day job … productive right?

Half of me thinks so and the other half thinks I could and should have spent more time focusing on my current work in progress.  Lately I’ve been feeling like I have a huge gap in my writing habits, like it doesn’t matter how long I sit down to write, it’s never long enough or the most productive.            I feel like my writing could take off and seriously go places if I could just figure out the right game plan for me follow! 

Am I alone in this feeling?

Most writers have a “day job”, it’s what sustains you while you work on your project and grow as a writer. So many famous authors have done this before me and are still doing it, so why am I finding it so hard??

I’ve always considered myself a work alcoholic  due to the fact that I have no issue pulling 12hr or longer days-As long as I’m busy- if the day is going at a slow pace or I’m consitantly having to wait to get a project done, then I don’t want to be there and do it. I’d rather be elsewhere actually accomplishing something. 

I like to wake up and feel like I have a purpose, like what I do that day will make a beneficial difference. So maybe that’s my problem? 

Maybe I’m not accomplishing enough at my day job anymore. Maybe my soul needs more to feel of use… but what does that entail? Is it time to move on and find a new challenge? Do I need to soul search and figure out what it was that brought me here in the first place Or am I just feeling the cabin fever of this winter season and all will pass in time?

Ugh! So many questions and very few answers! πŸ˜‘πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ


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