That feeling you get when you suddenly realize your heart is going to be broken and there is nothing you can do about it.

My boyfriend and I broke up last night and I physically have no idea what to do.

It’s such a weird void right now. And I know, “Blah blah, you’re young,” “Blah, you’ll meet someone else, blah.” But that doesn’t change my heart or how I feel right now.

Honestly, we were heading downward for a while. It seemed like every time we talked about fixing things or issues that bothered one of us, nothing really changed. I still don’t feel like he really heard me and listened to the things I said. He mostly just corrected me with things that bothered him. Dismissed me… It’s just heartbreaking. I don’t know; I want to be over it. But I need to vent.

Just sucks cause we were planning a trip together down to Florida soon; it was going to be our first trip together. Our parents gave us the okay to start booking things and everything… now what? I’m thinking about asking my aunt if she wants to go with me. I’d still like to go even though it won’t be how I had envisioned it.

I don’t know. I just wanted to keep writing a little more. Thanks for listening.

E.M